Kay Arthur's Lord, Teach Me to Pray in 28 Days Part 2

Day 2 of this book mentioned the powerful prayer of Elijah that stopped rain for 3 and a half years. It described him as an ordinary man. Which mentally, its not hard to be an ordinary man and pray, but once it said he prayed and got the rain to stop for over 3 years it seemed impossible to reach for someone like me.

The next thing mentioned was how Jesus told a story of how if you went into midnight asking a friend for three loaves because you didn't have any for someone visiting you. The friend would mentally say no, because they are sleeping and its late. Their action would be to give you all that you need because you were persistant enough to get it. I think Jesus use this illustration and explained asking in persistance, because it shows how we react to his works. Finding what you seek, asking and receiving. Some things we don't receive because we don't ask or we don't believe. Do we really want what we are asking for? I really understand this but the questions i have come with, does this really work? Isn't it God's will that matters, even if we ask? It's ultimately God's decision. So how does this ask and receive work if it's not his will? I am working hard to lean not to my own understanding. So I will keep this question in mind and as I learn to pray, I think God will give me the answer. I know that it is in his will for me to learn.

Lord, Teach Me How To Pray in 28 Days by Kay Arthur

Dear Lord,

I need to be closer to you and I need to work within your will. Please forgive me for my sins. I know I ask for this so often, but I am working on getting to hardly asking and not asking for forgiveness for the same things. Lord, thank you for another day, another dollar, and another chance. I surrender my family, my friends, and my life in your hands that we may do your will.


Love,
Your Child

Caught Between A Dream and A Job Part II

In Chapter 1, Delatorro spoke of all hopes to see happen for when I finish reading this book or as he says, when I am "there". "When you consider the subtitle of this book in terms of stepping into the life you've always wanted, what do you see?

I see happiness, joy, and love. I see a sense of not having to worry about the financial aspect of my life. I have time freedom to enhance my relationship with God, my family, my friends, and I can learn and travel the world. That is what I see. I don't think life will be completely perfect, but it will be better than what it is now. That is what I envision. The next question was:

"How do you define success? Go ahead. Tell me. What does success mean to you? Success means, enhancing the life of my family. Having a plan and sticking to it no matter what. Success is being focused and reaching what you have focused on for so long. I have yet to accomplish success because I measure it on having the time to do whatever I want, when I want and not being the person to answer to someone at a job.

The Master in the Art of Living quoete by James A. Michener was also mentioned. Google it.

What does that quote mean to me? You should love what you're doing and it should give you what you need!

So, in the middle of Chapter One, I can say that I became a little fustrated. I don't know what I am looking for. I know my there, but I can't see how to get "there". My talent? Where is it? What can I do that I love that I can get paid for? I don't know. I just don't know. I love to do many things and all of it consumes my money. I don't understand. I had to take a break. I will continue later.

Caught Between a Dream and a Job Part 1

I am about to read this book so to keep things interesting I will write about what I am reading as I read. I like to share with you what I experience and perhaps you would like to get this lovely book by Delatorro McNeal II. In my introduction this book asked me this: "Why are you reading this book? Please write your response in the space below."

I am reading this book because I am caught between a job and a dream to not have one. I don't want a job, I want to be free. However, being free requires me to need money. I want to be free to travel and see my family. I want to be free to do whatever I please. However, I haven't found my niche in life. I really don't even know what I like to do. I like to be free and I just don't think I can get paid for doing such a thing. Yet this is the answer I give Mr. McNeal. I wonder what his reaction would be .

Funny thing is, he did mention freedom after I gave the answer. He acts as a coach in this book, a coach that promotes freedom.

His introduction is wonderful. I guess I can move on to Chapter 1.

Coexisting Relationships and Freedom

I love my freedom. I say again, I love my freedom. Why? Its in my free-spirited life. Although this is true, I don't see this being something that a relationship will allow.

being in any kind of relationship neccesarily means giving another person some degree of power over one-less so in casual friendships, and much more in intimate, loving relationships. It seems to me that knowing that helps a person evaluate the types and scope of power given to another; and that in turn helps ensure that power-that trust-isn't misplaced. -Sunni from www.sunnimaravillosa.com/node/1045

It honestly has nothing to do with anything, but I love my freedom. I can't seem to express myself about it. I can't even really finish this entry, because I really don't know where to go with what I want to say.

Clutter:Free Your Mind

My mind has yet to be free but today starts the de-clutter. Day 1, its official. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with all these things. So I started a morning ritual which I will do every morning. This isn't part of de-clutter but a habit I am developing to use and keep when I am finished emptying my place. So, there are things that I need and things that I don't need. I need to figure out what is what. I am going to start with the bathroom and then I will go from there. My bathroom has a million nick nacks. Some I use and some I don't. Either way. These things must leave. I don't want to throw them away, so I am trying to be creative. I will let you know what happens.

Habits and Change

You know, I am the most disorganized person I know. Starting tommorow I am turning over a new leaf. No more clutter. No more clutter. No more clutter. You know why I am 27 and disorganized? I am because I have too many things that I don't need. Some cheap and worthless, some expensive(but somehow its worthless because I could care less bout it), and just stuff that I didnt rationalize and think about. I am not starting a new leaf later. I am startin a new leaf now. I have done this a million times but this time I think different about this thing. I think that I need to reall get a hold of this and actually clean out Eccentrik Queen's Kloset. Dannica Smith's Closet. I need a clean closet. Why do all I have all of these things? Do I really need all of these things? NO NO NO. God is going to help me get rid of these things so that I can find out what I want. Maybe I dont have a mand or can't mentally focus on things I need to do because I have too much clutter. I can't even see myself with anyone because I have so much to do to help myself. I have this facade and I may not mean to have it but its there. The honest truth about me always comes out if you ask me, but I really been thinking. My ex pulled out this book of all of his dreams the other day. Wow! I was impressed but I acted as if I wasn't. I did that because I was so jealous. I was so jealous because he knew exactly what he wanted, no matter how big or how small. I was also on that list. However, I don't think I should be because I don't have a list. I don't know what I want. My brain is cluttered. I can't think. I just don't know what to do. I think I do, but really I don't. I think I need to get rid of everything that I have and start all over again. I need to raise money to get main things and focus on them. I am not even going to proofread this because of all the clutter it may cause in my brain. Starting tommorow, I release myself from the bother of clutter, in hope that I get somewhere in life and know what I want. I just can't think with all of this stuff.