Clutter:Free Your Mind

My mind has yet to be free but today starts the de-clutter. Day 1, its official. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with all these things. So I started a morning ritual which I will do every morning. This isn't part of de-clutter but a habit I am developing to use and keep when I am finished emptying my place. So, there are things that I need and things that I don't need. I need to figure out what is what. I am going to start with the bathroom and then I will go from there. My bathroom has a million nick nacks. Some I use and some I don't. Either way. These things must leave. I don't want to throw them away, so I am trying to be creative. I will let you know what happens.

Habits and Change

You know, I am the most disorganized person I know. Starting tommorow I am turning over a new leaf. No more clutter. No more clutter. No more clutter. You know why I am 27 and disorganized? I am because I have too many things that I don't need. Some cheap and worthless, some expensive(but somehow its worthless because I could care less bout it), and just stuff that I didnt rationalize and think about. I am not starting a new leaf later. I am startin a new leaf now. I have done this a million times but this time I think different about this thing. I think that I need to reall get a hold of this and actually clean out Eccentrik Queen's Kloset. Dannica Smith's Closet. I need a clean closet. Why do all I have all of these things? Do I really need all of these things? NO NO NO. God is going to help me get rid of these things so that I can find out what I want. Maybe I dont have a mand or can't mentally focus on things I need to do because I have too much clutter. I can't even see myself with anyone because I have so much to do to help myself. I have this facade and I may not mean to have it but its there. The honest truth about me always comes out if you ask me, but I really been thinking. My ex pulled out this book of all of his dreams the other day. Wow! I was impressed but I acted as if I wasn't. I did that because I was so jealous. I was so jealous because he knew exactly what he wanted, no matter how big or how small. I was also on that list. However, I don't think I should be because I don't have a list. I don't know what I want. My brain is cluttered. I can't think. I just don't know what to do. I think I do, but really I don't. I think I need to get rid of everything that I have and start all over again. I need to raise money to get main things and focus on them. I am not even going to proofread this because of all the clutter it may cause in my brain. Starting tommorow, I release myself from the bother of clutter, in hope that I get somewhere in life and know what I want. I just can't think with all of this stuff.

Let's Get It!

I put together some things that I was going to take to TN, but trying to figure out when I am going. Hmmmmm.....I need to figure out when I am going to do alot of things. It gets rough when you put yourself to the test over and over again with some problems. Yet, I know that I will adjust each try. It's all about getting closer to my dreams. My love life can't get in the way no time soon, because I honestly can say that I don't have one. I honestly think that I am going to miss my mark and not be able to have the kids that I want to have. Probably be married when I am like 50 or will I even get married? Seems, men want to wait until the very last second to get married....then they want to pick some young spring chicken that honestly knows nothing about life, but happy to catch a man in this crazy world. No more blogging for today....I fell off into the deep end. It happened so fast.

That Thing You Do

I am not known to be shy, but at times I can meet someone that causes me to go into a shell. It's crazy because I am good at being around people but it's hard when I am in marked territories. Unmarked territory is fair game for me and that is why I always want to be outside somewhere when meeting or dealing with people. My place is also a great place because I can chill out and have fun however I want. It's always cool to kick it and be in control. I guess with him, the guy I finally met, it was more of a manly thing. He is such a man. I mean, what man isn't a man? I know you are asking. You know how Alicia Keys says, "A real woman knows a real man when she sees him" and vice versa, that was the kind of feeling I had. He gave me a hug and it just made me feel so womanly, so I crawled into my shell. It's going to be some trouble for him when I crawl back out of it. That's my middle name, trouble. ( :

Learning......My Rules of Love

Some things I learned in my past relationships.

1. I can't make you love me if you don't, I can't make you pretend to love me, I can't make you do anything. For sho'

2. Love, it's different. I said it and thought I meant it, but I am not with him, so I guess I loved him in a way that had nothing to do with the relationship.

3. The only love you can depend on is God's Love.

A New Season!

I have so much to focus on right now. It is a new season coming into my life and it feels so good because it is positive. I am free-spirited and postive right now. I have gained new ideas and the next big idea is going to be something that I will focus on and stick to. This will take plenty of work but I know that I will succeed. The concept makes me think of my relationships and friends. I can't explain it all at the moment but I feel very excited. I would tell you more but I think you can wait.

I'm BACK! FIRST BLUNDER OF 2010!

What's up? I am back on the scene and my favorite color is green. Well, it seems like every June I get inspired to write or around this time. Well, Eccentrik Queen's Kloset is still a dream, but not exactly a dream delayed anymore. My friend from TN called me the other day and asked me to revive my line in her store. I told her I would and now I am just inspired to start back with all of the work that I was producing in the first place. Hopefully I stay focused this time. Life is a box of random flowers. Some grow to be beautiful, some grow to be plain, and some just don't live to their potential. In the end, they all die. Ok, so I am back now and I can talk about a few things that I want to speak on. First, I am very irritated with gas prices and I don't see why no one else is upset. Why? Because it was worst than this when I was in Iraq? I am still peeved. The Benz is eating me alive. Luxury cars need luxury gas. Next, relationships and sex for me is just a bad subject. I am trying to refrain from this whole sex thing, but the relationship thing is rough. I may even dance around sex, but I really dont plan on falling in. My body does, so I tend to get the urge to express it......I don't know. As far as relationships, I just can't get the man I am interested in to be interested in me. I went to Match.com and saw the biggest potential of a man and it's like the worst for me because he sees nothing in me. He may be interested in some physical play, but he doesn't want much else. Honestly! I am thinking about ending my try on Match. My subscription is until September, but I just dont see nothing coming out of that. Next, I have the dinero ready to start the Queen's Kloset back up in TN and I have been really working hard to get started. I think by next month I will have everything set up. It's great to have someone that is ready for you to succeed. I just wish I had a close male friend to share ideas with. He dont have to be all boyfriendy, just be a good friend. Sigh! I will try to get blogging again, just give me some time. I think this may help me with the stress I am having.